I have been truly broken this week. I am not a fighter. I am not a warrior. I am not an inspiration.
I am a very scared & very lonely little girl in a world which has become all too overwhelming. I always thought I had hospitals, doctors, nurses & my conditions sussed & controlled until this week.. no amount of dark humour or positive thinking is going to change my mind. I have cut myself off from pretty much everyone I know, love or trust because of this week. Because I can't bare to relive the day I've just had all over again. I now scream when certain doctors or nurses walk through the door because I am scared of them. Today alone Ive lost 2 tubes & had 3 tubes placed with no pain relief or sedation. Ive forgotten what sleep is now as I've not done it in over a week. This week is meant to be feeding tube awareness week but now sadly to me it will always be the week I lost my trust & belief in the people who were meant to be keeping me safe.
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